Okay, so yet once again here I am retaking my anatomy class for not only the second but the THIRD time. You can probably imagine how I feel. The worst part is, I still have to take another second anatomy class once I finally pass this one. Meanwhile my friends are applying for nursing school this semester, some that have already applied and some have even been accepted while I sit here and struggle to pass the prerequisites.
Alright, so I started off my freshman year at University of Northern Colorado where I knew I was going to study nursing. First semester was alright where I lived off of asiago bagels and chai tea from the library. When second semester rolled around I felt like my head was spinning in a thousand circles. Well let's just say it was so bad it got to the point where I was going to tutoring almost everyday, plus I was studying in the library an average of six hours a day. I was constantly telling myself I couldn't be the only person who was struggling so hard. I made flashcards, studied with groups, wrote things out on a white board and nothing seemed to work! I was also taking 18 credits this semester while trying to get my CNA on top of that. My hands were full and my brain was DEAD by the end of each day. Wow, I was drained!
I will say taking the CNA class was so much fun because I met a lifelong friend, Sarah, who made that class so much more enjoyable. We studied and worked together and very, very occasionally we even went to the gym, although it was rare because we would always end up at Cafe Mex. I will say Sarah and I never had a shortage of shopping sprees. She was enrolled in the same anatomy class as I was, so we would go study at Starbucks but usually end up at TJ Maxx.
So I already knew I was pretty much going to fail the anatomy class because I hadn't gotten higher than a D on any of the tests, although I did work my butt off. The final rolled around the same day as my CNA final. I was already extremely stressed out about the CNA final because that was one I could not fail. I told myself I was going to pass! I studied HARD and worked hard for it so there was no other way than passing with flying colors! Every student showed up at 7:00am to start the written final first then continue on to the skills final. The teacher came out with the results and everyone passed! Now, onto the skills final. I was the third group to go and everyone in the previous groups had come out and told us it was easy and not to worry about it. I took my skills final and can you guess what happened?... I FAILED. Yep, the only kid so far to fail in my class. I ran out of the room crying and Sarah was waiting for me where she was about to go next. Now, I'm waiting for Sarah to finish while I'm on the phone trying to reschedule another day I can come take it again. Meanwhile I still have to go take my anatomy final in about an hour. I was less worried about that because I pretty much knew I had to retake the class. Anyways, Sarah passed, and yes I was happy for her but also mad because she didn't fail with me (I know, thats kinda mean to say). So finally about a week later they got me in and I was able to retake the test where I finally passed. Phew, finally done with school for the summer.
After a crazy year at UNC, I decided to move home and attend Arapahoe Community College which is by house and costs a lot less. So, I enrolled for several classes, one being anatomy again. I figured I had already taken one of the hardest classes at UNC so I figured I would be fine and I would blow community college out of the water. Well, yeah, actually quite the opposite. Community college blew me out of the water.... So here I am a year and a half later taking the same class again for the THIRD time, just trying to get a B to move on (It kills me to even think about moving on and taking the next class higher & harder). I loved the teacher I had, which is why I chose to take her again and her material is easier to learn although you must put in hours and hours of work even if you just want a decent grade. I have decided this is my last semester of taking anatomy and there is no other way. I WILL PASS THIS TIME!
So who cares if your friends are applying to nursing school and you are basically a fourth semester freshman like myself (I know, embarrassing). If you know that is exactly what you want to do, go for it! Plus, by the time I graduate I will be much smarter than all my co-workers because I will have much more experience ;) Sometimes it's hard to wrap my head around why I'm the only one that has to retake the class so many times, while my friends don't even have to study as hard and receive an A+. Obviously school comes much harder to some as it does to others, and unfortunately I am one of those. That doesn't mean I will ever give up, it just means I will have to work twice as hard as them!
There was even a point last semester when I was going to give up, not go back to school and sign up for beauty school. I even went and toured beauty school, and although it looked fun I knew that wasn't the job for me. I love blood, guts, intestines dragging on the floor and any other nasty thing you can think of, which is how I know the ER is where I'm suppose to be. No matter how long nursing school will take me, I will eventually be there and I know it will be the most rewarding feeling because of how hard I had to work to get there!
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